11/29/09 Jose, about 45
At the laundromat I also talked with Jose, who told me he believes in God but is starting to doubt. He is going through a divorce and has been praying for relief from his feelings of loneliness, betrayal, depression and rejection. He feels that since he isn't asking for material things like money, possessions or a job then his prayer isn't selfish and "God should grant my requests. Instead I feel like God is ignoring me, so I've even asked the devil but he doesn't help either." Jose grew up Catholic but no longer attends church. He is holding on to many false promises he heard at church or has seen on Christian TV programs. Jose seemed so fixated on his problems and God's failure to help him that everything I said seemed to fall on deaf ears. In the end I basically encouraged him to keep waiting on the Lord but that while he waits he needs to actively seek Him through reading his Word, prayer, and fellowship. He didn't have a Bible so I gave him a Spanish language New Testament along with my contact info.